I am writing this post with the feeling that no one really reads this blog of mine. If you do and know me in real life, let's just not talk about it in person ok?

I am thinking of quitting school which is not that big a deal and there are many reasons why. But the main reason, for me, is one I can't talk about with anybody - my big secret.  I have an eating disorder which got substantially worse during the two months I returned to school. And it actually developed the first time I was a grad student. Something about the anxiety and pressure of school makes my eating disorder worse. I don't want to fall down a well out of which I can't climb and for what?  Yet another university degree! I need to make room in my life to develop a healthy relationship towards food and my body and to get over this struggle of mine.

There. Posting it, even if no one reads it, makes it feel more real.